Thank you to Mama Maple for taking this beautiful photo.
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I’m reading The Vortex by Ester & Jerry Hicks. On page 41 they share a 30-minute Energy Alignment Process that I’m starting tonight when I go to sleep:
It feels so nice just *thinking* about doing this. Imagine actually doing it!
I’ll be back tomorrow to report on this experience.
Join me if you think it’d feel good!
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Where were you on July 6, 2009?
I was sitting at my laptop blogging these 9 things about how I wanted my life to be different in 30 days:
July 6, 2009:
Describe the me that I would like to be in 30 days: I wake up happy and excited to see what the day has in store. I feel so good about putting myself first every morning. I am easily able to discern what is good for me and what is not for me in a particular moment. I understand more about how I work. I am unique and I’m more familiar with me than I am with me in comparison to others. I am vibrant and honest. I feel shiny and sparkly inside. I am clear and confident. I’m proud of being me and love how I’m taking care of me.
I definitely didn’t fit that description 30 days after I wrote it…
But it’s now July 7, 2010…a whole year later…and guess what? They’re all true.
More often than not, this is now true for me. I love it! I wake up, plug in the white lights that I hung around the ceiling, then I lay back, smile and think, “I love it here!”
My room is absolutely beautiful and it makes me so happy. It mostly has red, orange, pink, and purple in it. There are green plants; 5 of them. I have a cool frog (Freddie) on my wall. He’s made of metal and he’s 3D and looks like he’s hanging there by his little suction cup feet. There are paper lanterns hanging in one corner. It’s my dream room. And it’s so fun to wake up in.
This has come true.
Yes I do! I have my little morning rituals – they vary sometimes – but Me Time is always there. Whether I’m walking around the block, meditating, sitting in the sun drinking my fresh juice, journaling, inquiring, singing to myself, or doing sun salutations…the morning is mine. And I feel AWESOME about it.
This has come true.
I am a chillion times better at this than I was when I originally wrote it. Why? Because I’m trusting myself more. I’m trusting my intuition. Trusting my life. Trusting my path.
There are times, especially when I am thinking of existential things and my mind gets away from me, when I feel lost and have trouble discerning whether I should be sitting or standing (as a dramatic example.) But on the whole, I am good at saying yes and no – which is what this whole thing was about when I wrote it a year ago. To make a decision and feel good about it and trust that it is good. Particularly around activities I get involved with, people I spend time with, and foods that I eat. I am good at it!
This came true.
Hells yeah. Have you heard of Wealth Dynamics? Seriously changed the way I understood how I should be working. But not only that. I’ve realized that I am not someone who works well with deadlines that involve other people. Nope. Just not for me right now.
I also know that in order for me to enjoy my work, I need to feel like I have a relationship with my projects and the people I’m creating things for. Oh, and on the creating topic – it’s not my strong suit to create things. Partly because of the deadline thing…and the fact that I’ve had some wicked Business Injuries over the last couple of years – some of which I have not yet recovered.
So for sure. I understand more about how I work. And I am loving learning more about me in this area.
This came true.
(Wow. What an interesting thing to write!)
Truth: I compare myself to others so much less frequently now. It’s almost amazing. I do things in public that I would not have done previously. Things like TALK to people in grocery stores. And make small talk with clerks in shops. I smile. A lot. And I am too busy having fun in my world to spend much time thinking about what others are thinking about me.
It’s so refreshing…it’s like…wow. Really refreshing.
And I really like me. More than I ever have.
This came true.
Vibrant. Yes.
Honest. Yes.
Continuing to bring awareness to both. Yes. Especially about being honest with myself about how I’m feeling and not trying to control it or limit the degree to which I feel something. Preventing myself from feeling fully is on of the biggest ways I Upper Limit myself and stop myself from experiencing more joy, success, love, and abundance.
Oh yes! This had a lot to do with my health and now that I’m so on track with taking care of my insides, I totally do feel fresh and shiny and sparkly. I know that my insides are happy and enjoying the way I’m treating them. And all the good stuff that I’m giving them. And when I went to my brother’s wedding last month all my friends and family said I looked vibrant and healthy too.
This has come true.
Yes! And with that comes a feeling of maturity. Of independence. Know that I’m totally here for me and willing to do what it takes to take care of myself. I feel good about my choices and I’m confident and trusting that all is well and my life is wonderful. It can’t be otherwise. I’m finally getting this.
This has come true.
Oh my gosh. I don’t think I ever expected to feel this proud of myself. To like myself so much and to appreciate the things that I do for myself on a daily basis. I have so much respect for what I do to sustain my life and enjoy it!
A year ago I was wanting to change my life in 30 days. Those initial changes got the ball rolling – now a year later – every one of those desires I had have become true. Super cool.
And would it be okay with you if they all came true in the next year?
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Last time I wrote about how instead of valuing productivity, I now value feeling good.
And because I choose feeling good over productivity, my life is way different.
For one, I feel better more often. (Hi Captain Obvious!)
Another one is that by choosing to feel good, I also regularly meet my COE’s as Jen Louden calls them.
The other day I had a copywriting project to wrap up for someone. It was hanging out in the background of my mind but I just hadn’t made the leap to finalize it. So I went to Panera’s and gave myself a 3 hour time block to get it done in.
With the help of some good tunes and a window to look out of when I needed to daydream a bit, I got it totally finished in 90 minutes and my clients loved the work I did.
So guess what?
That was all the work I was going to do and that’s all the work I did.
It was so cool.
I didn’t once think about all the stuff I “should be doing” that I wasn’t doing.
Was there stuff I *could* have been doing?
Of course. There always is…and there always will be other things I *could* be doing.
But should?
Not anymore.
Not when I declare what enough is and then lean into that and ride it.
It was totally enough that I completed that project. It was a big deal to finish it.
Totally enough. And because I declared that it was enough, I got to experience other things during my day.
When I work without knowing what enough is, it’s like overeating.
I don’t listen to the signal to stop – if I even notice the signal at all.
I don’t know when to stop stuffing myself with work.
I don’t know how to feel good about what I’ve already done.
Not knowing what Enough is actually affects me negatively.
Because then I work work work – don’t take care of myself – then wind up in trouble.
What kind of life is that?
Learning how to identify what Enough is in my life may be one of the best lessons I’ve learned all year.
I use it around food. I use it around work. I use it around my body. Around my friendships. It’s amazing.
I’m even getting better at recognizing the Enoughness after the fact if I forget to declare it beforehand.
(Thank you for bringing Enough to life for me, Jen. )
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