Here’s one thing you can do: Can you write me the first week of Feb. and ask me that question again?

I’m tending a lot to my health right now after a little set back in late Nov. and have been out in Oklahoma with my mom for the holidays – heading back to CA on Wed. Have some things I need to do work wise, yadda yadda…so I’ll be thinking about what you suggested until then and see if something creative and ingenious comes up when I’m more available to do something about it. Sound good?

I love you. Thank you. xoxo

so I got online to see what was up with it – and it appears it still isn’t done….

I’d like to know if it’s possible for those of us who paid for it longggg ago to obtain at least SOME of the exercises in it – even in abbreviated form?

I believe with everything in me that your tools are some of the best out there….. and selfishly – I WANT THEM!

What do I need to do in order to support you to release your manual so that you can feel at peace with it and I can have access to your goodies?

Wow, I’m awestruck by the powerful honesty in this post.

I had lost track of you for a while, and thought to see what you’re up to tonight after seeing a testimonial by you on another site. And I can see that your inner work has only deepened over time.

My own work has evolved into a very specific niche around resistance, because my whole life used to look like the struggle you’re describing with your manual. My heart is truly resonating with all the feelings you’re describing around it.

And from my own struggle there are a few bits I’d like to offer for yours.

First, I’ve come to see my resistance as a loving force that remembers something that I’ve forgotten and is trying to keep me away from something it thinks will be dangerous to me.

When Rhonda talks about “a part of us will die”, I would say Yes, our current false identity will die. But a part of us will also LIVE – an authentic part that’s been buried and waiting to come to life again.

I used to have an identity that was deeply connected to shame and my resistance would constantly set me up for ongoing doses of it. Letting go of that identity seemed like it would be such a good thing, but believe it or not, my resistance was actively preventing it from falling away.

I came to understand that a part of me actually believed that letting go of the shame and the old identity would open me up to something worse than living inside of it.

So the question I really want to ask/offer is :
Who would you be if the manual was complete and what might be so scary about that?

The last thing I would say is that – the only thing that ever worked with my resistance, especially in the face of shame, was to thank it.

That would end the battle. I would go into a very soft place inside with an understanding that my resistance has been trying to love and protect me all along and I just haven’t understood it’s efforts

I would apologize for making it wrong and I would thank it deeply for all it’s vigilance and long memory and support on my behalf. And then I would start to open an inner dialogue with it.

But whether the dialogue opened or not, the softness would end the battle and I would immediately claim all the energy back that the battle was using up. And that would be SUCH a relief.

I hope this helps in some small way. I have to tell you that when I first started out with my website, you were way ahead of me in your design and your strategy and your heartfelt copy-writing and your offerings.

I followed every change you made for the first few years and I learned and absorbed so much in watching your site and your work evolve. This feels like the tiniest opportunity for me to give something back to you for support you didn’t even know you were giving to me.

The world deserves your manual and anything else you can give it. Of that I have no doubt. But your wise resistance is perfect and you are in exactly the right place with it. All shall be well.

Big blessings,
Susan J
Halifax, NS
Susan Johnstone´s last blog ..Resistance is Your Soul’s Compass

First of all, I want you to feel my arms around you….at the beach as we’re playing in the waves….
Feel the fun of riding your bike…
Feel the joy of connecting with wonderful people…

And let go of that heavy iron arm of should….and failure….

Communicating with those who have purchased sounds like a wonderful idea. Years ago I purchased a “to be created” ebook from a coach.
The book never came into fruition as far as I know. I wrote to her several times….she did respond once and then seemed to disappear.
I have searched for her on the net and she is still around….

Reason I mention that is that her communicating with me about the challenge of the project would have been so clean…and so welcomed on my part. Hearing her struggle would have made her work even more powerful to me.

Just being in the light instead of the darkness ….

You have so much to offer and the world deserves to have it in good time….your time….

Much love from Suzanne
Suzanne Holman´s last blog ..Who Do You Know Who Has Alzheimer’s in the Family? – Fr.ee Call Tonight

Thank you so much for sharing your struggles as well as your wisdom and expertise. To my way of thinking, it makes you come across as very real and three-dimensional, and gives you major integrity in my eyes.

Here’s a thought that I find missing from this post: Suppose you stopped expecting yourself to finish the manual. What if you wrote everyone and said ‘forget it for now’? What if you gave yourself the gift of freedom from the pressure of this project? What would be the stretch, the risk, the die there?

Not to say or assume the manual would never be done, or that all you’ve accomplished would be wasted. But just to somehow expand the thinking to give yourself relief from the pressure of the stuck place you’ve been in and the expectations you’ve been holding.

Does that make any sense? And, just out of curiosity, where did this post fall in relation to your sore mouth and throat problems?