Trip Reflections: Friday & Saturday. Tiny Part of Sunday

Haven’t really stayed connected to my Trip metaphor…

Might be time to look at my relationship with it.

What happened? Why aren’t I having as much fun on my vacation as I was before?

What if nothing happened?

Is it okay for me to be on vacation and not be all crazy in love with it?

Is it okay to be on vacation and feel kind of…meh?

Yes. (I proudly assert to myself.)

And just acknowledging this is actually reconnecting me with the Trip.

Ta-Da!

Friday Rememberings:

Spent the first part of the day in my yard doing my calls and my typing. It was so great. I remember thinking, “Man, I’m so grateful I live in a place where I can do this!” I took pictures of ordinary things with my iPhone and I wore a sarong and my bikini top in the sun.

At night I went to dinner at Taleo Grill in Irvine with a vegan MeetUp group. We met on the patio. At night. It was cold. And I had totally forgotten my jacket.

Well, that’s not actually true.

As soon as I’d driven out of the neighborhood I realized I hadn’t brought my jacket…

But I told myself, “That’s okay. There’ll be heaters on the patio.”

And there were – which was awesome. But I wasn’t totally sitting under them.

There was a lot of laughter. And I paid way too much for a sorry looking spinach salad with no imagination. That really irks me.

Loved being around new people and sharing food together, so I came home and made a MeetUp group of my own where all I do is invite people over for Raw Food Potlucks.

I’m stoked about this!

I scheduled the first one for May 22. It’s a Saturday and we’ll meet from like 3-7 to eat and hang out.

Also on Friday – had a conversation with someone involving misunderstanding and disconnection. I know that can happen sometimes as part of relationships, but it still usually catches me by surprise.

I’ve started getting used to conversations going smoothly and easily. So when there’s a hiccup in one, it really stands out and surprises me now. It catches me off guard and then leads me to react, which can then contribute more to the misundersatnding. The cycle is really getting some momentum at this point.

Saturday:

At like 9:30 a.m. I was on my patio in sweats and a giant hoodie wondering, “Where is the sun!?”

Like really – I was almost taking it personally that the sun wasn’t shining brightly.

Friday I’d been outside in a sarong and my bikini…today, it was Look-Like-The-Michelin-Man weather.

I started feeling sad and frustrated that my day was being ruined by the sun not shining down on me.

(Interesting that I never get mad at the clouds – even though they’re the ones preventing the lack of sunlight in the first place.)

I think it’s safe to say I kind of moped around the house. Wasn’t really talking with my Scooby Friend much. Didn’t open all the windows and blinds like I usually do.

It was just kind of blah…

Then I saw on Chef Ito’s Facebook page that Ani Phyo was giving raw food talk 40 minutes from when I was reading it.

I used that as my reason to get out of the mopey dragging mood and energy I had. I got dressed, grabbed my stuff, and scurried along the highway to get there.

It was JUST what I needed. Like pushing a reset button.

Ani was inspiring and friendly and really knew what she was talking about.

I got my picture taken with her as part of my Good Memory Making focus. Love it!

And I got her to sign a copy of her book about raw food desserts for my sister. (Rose if you’re reading this, pretend you didn’t just read about my surprise for you!)

Fell in love with an amazing Sea Salad from Au Lac that I was so excited to see that I loved.

Some types of seaweed used to give me the heebie jeebies when I ate them.

But today I was saying yum to *all* of the different types of seaweed in my dish. Felt like a moment of growing up.

Plus this was a super creative, huge portion, of delicious nutritious salad and it was only $9.

So take that Taleo Grill! You and your $12 tiny arrangement of spinach, mushrooms, onions, and bell pepper can hang out in someone else’s belly from now on. Not mine. Grr.

(Ummm yes. The price of their salad really bugged me and continues to bug me. Gonna need to tend to this so I can see what’s causing it and give myself some ease and freedom around it. Yes please! Holding onto resentment about a salad is not how I choose to live my life. Doh!)

Sunday:

To say it more accurately this time, there are a lot of clouds in the sky this morning. It’s getting closer toward what they call June Gloom here in Newport. Where the mornings are kind of gray and gloomy because of whatever has been happening at the beach. Like fog and clouds and things like that.

Good opportunity for me to find something else to do in the mornings so that I’m not just sitting around looking at the clouds and feeling like my day can’t begin until the sun comes out. Addicted to sunlight. That’s me. I’d make a terrible bat.

Oh!

Instead of looking out the window at the clouds, I will do my Sun Salutations. My Dance of Shiva. And my Muscle-Making Movements that will get my heart rate up and make my body feel fit and toned.